I am 20 weeks (well this past Saturday I turned 20 weeks) and am thankful to be half way there. I am hoping the rest of the pregnancy is uneventful and passes by quickly. I think it will since we seem to be busy all the time. The first 20 weeks flew by and I was sick for most of it so if that can feel quick feeling good should feel even quicker.
Am I ready for a summer baby to be born with 3 kids at home with me??? Not really.... but I have no choice in the matter so I am going to just NOT think about it and just do it. My husband is going to take a week off.... if he is still working where he is. B U T
We are planning to open our own children's consignment store. We have talked about opening our own business together for years. We have thought of a bakery/cafe called Muffin Madness, and a restaurant delivery company called Dine-In Delivery but we have never followed through. This time we don't want to give up on our dream. My husband can't really stand his job, well it isn't so much his job, it is the fact that he is gone for 12+ hours a day and doesn't get much family time. He really enjoys being with us! Isn't that nice?
After we had our 20 week ultrasond and found out we really do have a baby boy growing we continued on having a great day. Life hasn't been so easy lately. My husband is dealing with a lot of 'not so fun' stuff with his x girlfriend, the mother of my stepdaughter. She basically wants full custody so she can take our money, little does she know we don't have any! We have 50% custody and placement right now and have her 50% of the time, sometimes more. I really hope the judge sees right through her! Anyway.....as I was saying
Thursday was a great day. We found out we have do indeed have a boy (I knew it all along!) and then we went to sign paperwork for our grant so we can finish Brendan's addition. Then we drove around and found the PERFECT spot for our store. Well we hope it is perfect. Rent is cheap but we aren't sure if business's always last there but it is worth a shot. It is right in our own town and on the main road. It is store front with big glass windows and the perfect size to start up. Did I mention the rent is just right??? We are going to gamble but it is exciting. A bit crazy being 20 weeks pregnant but hey, this is how we roll. How can we not follow through with this dream? It was a perfect day and somehow we ended up at this location and somehow the lady across the street was the property manager and let us in to see it right on the spot. It feels like destiny.
I have been thinking about opening a consignment store for years and we are used to living on one income right now so it shouldn't be too shocking for my husband to join me on this business adventure. Being all pregnant I need him. He might do a paper route or something at first to help pay the bills while we get started. It is very exciting and feels very real. We are doing lots of research and budgeting and we are in the works on reserving the building. Wish us luck!
It was Thanksgiving day back in 2002. I was only 23 years old and my life forever changed on that day. I had a placental abruption and Brendan was born at 33 weeks. He lost oxygen during delivery due to incompetent care but was a fighter and turned 17 this year. My journey in life over the past 17 years took many turns I was not expecting but I try to stay strong and have my husband by my side even when I am not.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Thursday, April 5, 2012
It is a healthy Bouncing Baby.................................
B O Y !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are super excited. I knew it all along. :) We can carry on my husbands last name and complete our family. 4 kids 2 boys and 2 girls. Perfection!
We are super excited. I knew it all along. :) We can carry on my husbands last name and complete our family. 4 kids 2 boys and 2 girls. Perfection!
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
14 1/5 hours to go!!! I am a little excited
I have been anxious all day. I had to clean my house to keep my mind occupied. I seriously can not wait to see my little baby. It has been 8 weeks since I have had an ultrasound. I am anxious to know if he/she is healthy and of course if it is a HE or a SHE!!!!! I can't believe it is tomorrow. AHHHHHH
Brendan's has an enlarged aorta. Also known as a dilated aorta. I am doing a little better today about it. I know I really can't worry daily for a whole year to see what next year's echo will tell me. I know they don't do surgery until the hole is a certain size. I know he at the moment his heart is pumping well. I just have to focus on all of that and the new addition in our lives. I can't constantly fear what his future holds. I need to take it day by day like I always try and do.
If you want to know more here is a link: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-an-enlarged-aorta.htm
I can't keep dwelling on it so I am trying to put it out of my mind until next April. Maybe his angels up in heaven can hear some prayers and heal his heart.
Brendan's has an enlarged aorta. Also known as a dilated aorta. I am doing a little better today about it. I know I really can't worry daily for a whole year to see what next year's echo will tell me. I know they don't do surgery until the hole is a certain size. I know he at the moment his heart is pumping well. I just have to focus on all of that and the new addition in our lives. I can't constantly fear what his future holds. I need to take it day by day like I always try and do.
If you want to know more here is a link: http://www.wisegeek.com/what-is-an-enlarged-aorta.htm
I can't keep dwelling on it so I am trying to put it out of my mind until next April. Maybe his angels up in heaven can hear some prayers and heal his heart.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
2 More Days!!!
The month has flown by even counting down the days. We finally have our anatomy scan on Thursday and hopefully can find out the gender. I think I might cry if the baby doesn't cooperate. I am a little nervous and hope the baby is healthy. We have been through a lot lately just dealing with life and I need a healthy baby to look forward too.
Brendan saw his cardiologist yesterday. His device that closed his ASD has healed nicely and tissue has grown over it. His heart is pumping nicely. He is only 47 lbs!! This kid needs to grow but on the other hand I don't mind him being so little.
We got some disheartening news about his heart but I don't feel like discussing it right now. I don't want my mom to know with everything we have been through with my dad so we are pretty much keeping it to ourselves. It isn't a 'problem' as of yet but something we have to watch every year and it could become a very big problem and I am scared. :( I am sad and I am worried. I just pray this last baby is healthy because I can't handle much more. I am already tearing up for the 4th time today just thinking about the unkown future for my dear son. I wish I could take away all his pain and all that he has gone through and still has to face. I am so thankful he is oblivious and happy.
Brendan saw his cardiologist yesterday. His device that closed his ASD has healed nicely and tissue has grown over it. His heart is pumping nicely. He is only 47 lbs!! This kid needs to grow but on the other hand I don't mind him being so little.
We got some disheartening news about his heart but I don't feel like discussing it right now. I don't want my mom to know with everything we have been through with my dad so we are pretty much keeping it to ourselves. It isn't a 'problem' as of yet but something we have to watch every year and it could become a very big problem and I am scared. :( I am sad and I am worried. I just pray this last baby is healthy because I can't handle much more. I am already tearing up for the 4th time today just thinking about the unkown future for my dear son. I wish I could take away all his pain and all that he has gone through and still has to face. I am so thankful he is oblivious and happy.